“You’ll discover that the ones that aren’t getting done are largely languishing because of fear.” I’ve found to be so absolutely true. Most of the time we know what we’re supposed to do, explicitly, implicitly. Sometimes it will be a scary, anxiety, stress inducing event. Something to do with high stakes, not quite ready for, in front of everyone to judge. Sometimes it will be something where we make the story in our head bigger than what it actually is.
Since I could remember, I’ve always felt drawn towards my fears, the imaginary fears, to explore what is making me afraid, what is causing this stress, anxiety. And has almost always turned out to be a North Star. Always uncomfortable and most often then not an opportunity for growth. On the other side of that imagined fear has always been a new awareness, skill or understanding. And one of the more crucial awarenesses I’ve found has been learning how to sniff out my own BS, the stories I tell myself to conceal, hide, avoid those fears. So these breadcrumbs of fear, where has it led me, here, today?
What change is looming, what am I willfully ignoring? Intangible, fleeting. Not enough to go off, what to write about. I think the change I see, the change I’m anticipating. Finally, becoming? Accepting? The person I see in my head and who I actually am. No more discrepancy, no more contradiction, no more gaps between the two. Is it possible. Can it be done. Transforming ideas into creation, creation into work, work into business, business into movement. A place to bring together people, purpose, promises – for lack of a better description, my creative studio endeavor.